Yet, years later I am writing you now saying I have not done that promise completely. I did begin teaching when I got back, an open door to ministry happened. The part that isn't complete, is a book. I make a lot of excuses and find myself sad that I just don't do it. Sometimes I don't feel qualified or that anyone would read it, but the point is this, God said to do it. So I read this: OBEYING THE LORD
1 Samuel 15:22-25 New International Version (NIV)
22 But Samuel replied:
“Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the Lord?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
23 For rebellion is like the sin of divination,
and arrogance like the evil of idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,
he has rejected you as king.”
24 Then Saul said to Samuel, “I have sinned. I violated the Lord’s command and your instructions. I was afraid of the men and so I gave in to them. 25 Now I beg you, forgive my sin and come back with me, so that I may worship the Lord.”
OBEYING THE LORD ~
Is it lack of confidence? Is it rebellion? Is it failure to see myself the way God does? Is it rejecting what God says to do? I am just throwing somethings out there, but God doesn't call the qualified but he qualifies the called! I heard that statement at a youth camp when my kids were little. No matter what, I sat down yesterday and had a little talk with Jesus. Asking for forgiveness in my not writing the book. Asking once again for wisdom to write it and determination to finish it. Somethings in life must begin now. No time to look back and have regrets but to press into a new day.
DREAM ~ I watch others jump into their dream jobs and lives. They begin and God helps them to press forward, but it takes the person with determination to succeed. It takes a person not quitting and allowing their insides of life become an example outside in life. We all different and come from different places of life. Failure happens to us and sin becomes real. It is just what the Bible speaks about, but a another chance happens to do live your dream. It's not over for me or for you, but a new day with a new beginning! Verse 25 above: "NOW I beg you, forgive my sin and come back with me, so that I may worship the Lord."
OBEYING GOD ~ Each of us have a calling upon our lives.
Some of us are teachers, hold professional jobs, workers in construction, and the list goes on. Many who feel they don't have a title in life, but you do. We are all people with some titles and some no titles. I have had titles and they are gone. I have found myself searching for who I am at times. You have a title of being called a child of God and you father created you to be unique! We are different for reasons bigger than we might know. God can use each of us in different ways.
I have cried a million plus tears, disappointments within myself and you don't even know became my ministry. Through the storms, the tears, the waters, and sunshine is a little girl who God sparked something big inside. A dream to help hurting people and show them through pain there is gain. A God who loves unconditional and wants the best for each of us. Who knows where God is really leading each of us, but him. Trusting God beyond a human understanding helps and counting daily blessings.
WITHIN ME ~
Is a yes to God and it flows outside of me
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.
~ Sparkie (remember this, God doesn't call the qualified but qualifies the called)