WHY ~

Even as a child, I wondered why I got sick with a cold or flu, and the list goes on.  I heard a Pastor speak on faith and the power to keep it.  You could ask anything and God would do it.  Of course as a child, I didn't get the big picture of faith, waiting or timing of things in life.  I didn't understand God's plan or that I needed to surrender my life to him. I was just a child and keep the word faith inside my head and heart.  

One day, I was playing outside and a l little boy threw something off the top of a house and it hit my head. It cut it very bad and my parents wanted to take me to the doctor, but I remember what the pastor said about faith and I asked them to call him.  I'm not sure how it all happen but I know he came and they prayed over my head, cleaned it up and bandaged it.  My dad was not happy about this, so my mom open the bandage back up and it was closed up. It was healed and an example to my dad who didn't believe.  WHY did it happen, I'm not sure but today I would take a child to the hospital. Did my faith weaken?  NO, but wisdom needs to come into play. Doctor's are there are a reason and they help us in many ways to get better.  

THE WHY ~ God used my cut to help my dad see faith


Some of us hear a doctor's report of something terrible and there may be no hope. I find holding onto hope is a must in life. Miracles can happen and doctor's reports can change.  My other example today is my brother who died from cancer. He believed big that God was going to heal him, but he went to Heaven on Christmas morning and it was hard.  The why's just flowed through my head and I became angry with God. Angry to the point of stopping church and leaving everything I knew to be true.  It went on for 11 months and my marriage almost ended through this.  


WHY ~  God has a bigger plan


My marriage did not end and God brought life back to me.  I saw that God's plan isn't always our plan. There is a time and place for all things.  I love this chapter of seasons in lives and times change.  There will be a time to:  

Ecclesiastes 3 New Living Translation 
A Time for Everything


1 For everything there is a season,
    a time for every activity under heaven.
2 A time to be born and a time to die.
    A time to plant and a time to harvest.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal.
    A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
    A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
    A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to quit searching.
    A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
    A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
    A time for war and a time for peace.

WHY?  I stopped asking why in my life. I know that in all things God is at work. I found myself yesterday asking why.  I was suppose to go to a Country Concert with my daughter and her boyfriend and I was terribly sick.  I waited for months for this day and I missed out.  My husband missed out too. But my husband mom needed to go the doctor and other things happen that he needed to be here and God worked it all out.  Yes, I missed out, but I'm better today and health is important. I'm glad I'm better and counting blessings through some disappointments.  

Life is about living the best we can each day. To count blessings and move pass the things that aren't happening yet and trust God that they will. A bigger plan that we can image and a big God who wants the best for us.  Happy new day readers of my blog and my prayers continue.  I could use your prayers today too. Thank you! 

~ Sparkie 






  

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