Proverbs 3:5-6 New International Version (NIV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
TRY HARDER ~
There are times in our lives when we must pick ourselves back up. Maybe something crazy happen and we are trying to figure it out. Spending too much time on thinking about things and you just need to trust God. I am old enough now to realize we can't figure everything out. Somethings are left to God and we must trust him.
Proverbs 16:20 New International Version (NIV)
Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers,
and blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord.
In life we can find that trust can be broken. In that broken trust, we get hurt and disappointed. When that happens, we find ourselves lost at times. Many questions can arise and we are pulled away from what God's plan is for us. I have experiences a broken trust in not just one person but several. I felt betrayed and cried a lot. Sometimes this hurt comes from the church body of people. People are human and can say things that should never be said to us. It's hard to let it all go and sometimes people just leave the church. I remember this clearly when my brother died at 37 years old from cancer. It was a happy Christmas morning when we would get the call. The call from the hospital to come now. We left opening gifts and rushed to the hospital.
I had a church family and when they arrived at the hospital, I overheard hurtful words and asked them to leave. It was in those moments of words that broke my trust that they were praying for life for him. My brother would die that day and I was broken inside for almost one year. I didn't go to church and broke friendships with the people I needed to that day. The trust could never be repaired and I lost God during that time too. I heard a small voice inside my head to TRY AGAIN.
TRY AGAIN ~
I went to a new church with my husband and kids almost one year later. The death of my brother brought so many changes in our lives. It was me that was broken but I didn't see the affects of my kids too. They didn't deserve a broken mom and I had to reach out to God again. God never left me but my trust in him did. I had to let God restore my soul and my mind. I began to read scriptures of hope.
Isaiah 40:31 New International Version (NIV)but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
TRY AGAIN ~
It was in my trying again that started a brand new beginning. I write daily to help others with a few scriptures and stories of my life. Nobody knows the depth of your life but God. God has brought you through stuff too and wants the best for your life. The best is letting go of what you can't change and change the things you can. My prayers continue for the readers of my blog, your family and friends.