Matthew 6:33-34 New International Version (NIV)33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
This is a picture of my husband (Terry) sitting on the dock fishing. A season of change has hit our lives with retirement and things are not the way we had planned them. We were talking about how life changes and somethings we could have done different in life. We were young and listen to the wrong people about financial guidance. Not everyone knows how to plan ahead. We would highly advise anyone to talk to a financial advisor because before you know it, retirement time hits and so does change.
Each day of life I write you and I talk about things in the real world. There are other things that change our lives as well. Waking up to a new day, but still playing over yesterday. The yesterdays of life can be extremely good and also extremely sad. They can help us grow stronger or become weary in life. I often say this: You can become better or bitter!
Job 1:20-21 New International Version (NIV)
20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship
21 and said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised.”
As I write this today, I read about Job who went through so much stuff in life. The Lord knew his heart and knew that his love for God was real. I'm in no way comparing my life to Job, but I have been through some stuff. The Bible does say that the Lord gives and takes away. He wants us to change by his plan of life and yet sometimes it is just hard watching life go by.
We go through things in life and we can look back to see how far God has brought us or look back to see the sorrows of change. Someone said to me the other day, "Oh you live in a trailer"? I said, "yes, but it's called a mobile home". Then they asked, "why did you move there". I began to tell the story of how we sold our home in Pinole years ago, moved into a two bedroom in a 4plex place. It was at that moment when I felt some angry arise. I never wanted to sale my house or move away from Pinole Ca. It happened and I can't do nothing about that now.
Although, in moving to Vallejo I became tired of living in such a tiny place after having such a big house. It was a 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom, 2 fireplace (I Loved) and a family room with a pool table and a beautiful backyard. Things changed and we had to git bid of a lot of stuff in life. My window of life become different. I looked out to see all the things God took away from me or did he? It was our poor planning and listening to wrong people in our lives about money
I only giving you a window of what I saw that season of life. Today, it's a different view. I look out oa my window of a mobile home and I see that my kids grew up in a place where they had a swimming pool, basketball court, play ground, freedom to ride bikes and skate. I see the view valuable today as I watch my granddaughters love it here. Brookley (7 years old) said to me the other day, "Grammie I love your house and I love that we can play". Seeing life through the eyes of a child is often so valuable.
I wondered at that point, had we not moved to Vallejo and stayed in Pinole, I wouldn't know the people I know now. My son might not have ever met Ashley and I might not have granddaughters. Ashley is who introduced my daughter to her husband and he has 3 sons (my daughter is a step mom to 3 boys). Brookley and Willow has two more sister since my son's and Ashley divorce and a step dad. I am in people lives for a reason and it's not to show the bitter side of life but becomes better through it all. I don't like the changes that I have seen and yet I feel a peace from God in my heart. I would do my best daily to love as Jesus loves me and show that change can be hard, but it happens.
In a perfect world, we would all get along and kindness would rain down upon us. But we don't live in a perfect world and we are not perfect. We are humans that need the power of God to be real inside of us to shine out. We are human and need to love like Jesus loves. I find my heart hurts and my heart smiles. Things change and I must be honest, I don't always like change. I love the way things were and life doesn't stay the same.
My dad, mom and brother lives in Heaven now. They moved and feel no pain. I look back to value time with them and see how each of their deaths were different. My dad was sudden with a heart attach when I was 18. My brother was cancer and given 6 months to live. He died on Christmas Day. My mom was indecent living and fell to break her hip. Her life changed in one day and lived inside a care home until death. She didn't know me at times and I would leave crying lots of days. I grew weary in well doing and I see that now. I have those wish I had moments in life. I wish I had done this or that, but I didn't. There is nothing I can do about it and I must believe I did my best at the times of change.
The Bible says:
Psalm 126:5 New International Version (NIV)5 Those who sow with tears
will reap with songs of joy.
TEARS ~ JOYS
My sorrows and joys in life has been mixed together to bring me to you. I write from the middle of my heart and my heart has good intentions. I try hard to show the real side of life, while pressing forward to make the best of each new day. I value time more than anything with others. I find things to do that doesn't cost money or I love how God has connected my life to those around me today. People have came into my life and moved away, but there never out of my prayers. Psalm 126:5 ~ I see how my life has sow with tears and I see how I have reaped joy.
I might not own property, a big house or family get away house, but as my granddaughters says, my home is filled with fun. Seeing things through the eyes of a child and living as a adult who learned to plan ahead in life. Purpose this a great day! See the things you do have today and the value of a new day.
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.