WHY did I make the choice I did?
WHY did you make the choice and it affected someone else?
WHY did God allow this to happen?
The list of whys of hardships, sorrows and pain goes on. It becomes time to let go of the WHY and start again. My life has been about leaving the past and traveling into a future that God created for me. I may never know the why of it all, but their is an inside trust that only comes from God.
I wasn't always this way. I remember being so angry at God when we lost our house. Everything in our lives seem to fall apart and I stop trying. In my early 30's and I had already witness death with my dad and brother. Two little kids who would never know their grandfather and their uncle would go to Heaven on Christmas Day. Putting it all together, to bring pain and sorrow inside our home. Years later, I would go back to church and found myself in a different spot. I choose to dig into my heart and press into God once again. God did not do some of the things I was mad about in life. My husband and I had free will in creating bills, he lost his job and the Bible speaks of a time to be born and die.
THIS IS WHO I AM ~
I am who I am, because of my yesterdays!
I am who I am, because of my today!
I am who I am, because I choose to believe!
THE BIBLE ~
Psalm 34:17-20 New International Version (NIV)
17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.
18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
19 The righteous person may have many troubles,
but the Lord delivers him from them all;
20 he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken.
I CRIED OUT ~ in my days of darkness
Yes, I asked why and I didn't understand so much about life. It is so important to get connected in a church that is Bible based and people live what they teach. We must never forget that inside of a church are humans. Humans make mistakes, they say things wrong and might hurt your feelings. There are also humans that do their best daily and are amazing people to connect with in life. My life was changed by me going back to church and allowing God to heal me. It took time and I was in my 30's and now I just turned 60 years old and writing this blog.
I remember crying out to God for so many things and he answered. The answer was not always my way but I can look back to see the reasons of why in some cases. God knows best! I do believe that but daily must surrender my thoughts and my ways. It takes action on my part and taking ownership of yesterdays. I can not move forward, while looking back. God has been there all along while I thought about my next step and loved me through it. It all begins with the person you look at in the mirror daily and speaking change into your heart.
I choose to let go of what I can not change and change the things I can! A statement I live by in my life and share often on my blog. God is faithful and I've seen miracles of life. The doctor's report was turned around in many cases. I'm old enough to realize that not every prayer is answered the way I think, but certainly God knows best.
I don't know what you are facing today, but face it with hope. Hope in a new day brings new thoughts and a changed mindset. You must purpose right thoughts.
Romans 12:1-2 New International Version (NIV)
A Living Sacrifice
1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Looking through eyes of faith is important. Be encouraged this day and know that someone cares. I write daily because I care. My pain from my past has brought life to my now. Through it all, I have learned to trust in God. I have learned that healthy friendships are important and valuable. I have learned to let go and let God.
A new beginning is available everyday of life for each of us. A new normal is not always easy, but necessary to begin again. My prayers continue for the readers of my blog and your families/friends.