Seasons of life ~ winter, spring, summer and fall
Psalm 119:114 (NIV)
You are my refuge and my shield;
I have put my hope in your word.
THE TEARS ~
I remember when I was young, how I wanted everybody to get along. I was tired of fussy people and yelling in my house. I would cry myself to sleep as a child and I haven't talked about it much. I was told as a kid to keep a secret. A secret that I didn't understand the depth of because I was only a kid. It still haunts me today when I think of how it tore so many lives apart, when this little kid (Me) told the secret. I'm not going to write about details of a secret but the impact it had on me then.
Nobody knows what might go on inside of one house or even one mind. The depth goes from season to seasons. Change happens and I am reminded of the verse Psalm 91:1 ~ He who dwells in the shelter of the most high..... Stay there and rest in his shadow. To rest in his shadow means you are pretty close to him which is great. Words of comfort and hope each day of our lives can come to us. I know that each season holds its own purpose and continues to rush into a new season.
I often think about these words, "Had I known". It means if you knew something before it happen, just maybe you would have handle those words different. Maybe the situation the same but the outcome could have been different. Had I known, I wouldn't have said that. Words hurt like a knife that cuts deep. The Bible speaks of the tongue being a sword ~
Proverbs 12:17-18 NIV
17 An honest witness tells the truth,
but a false witness tells lies.
18 The words of the reckless pierce like swords,
but the tongue of the wise brings healing.
Back to my story. I was just a kid and was always told to tell the truth. Yet, when I told the truth that day, I was punished. It wasn't a punishment that would last a few days, but it has followed me for 50 years. I don't always think about it, but we are doing a book at Church called, "Soul Detox". It is taken me back to places I never wanted to revisit. I'm not mad at anyone, but I can see the destruction that comes from making wrong choices and it doesn't always go away. It is something you choose to cast down and learn from in life. I still believe telling the truth is the best thing.
Never think that your own choices doesn't bring consequences in your own life. God is a good of mercy and grace, but consequences sometimes follow us. I can honestly say I have positive and negative that flows in my head. I know that Romans 12:1-2 means the world to me by renewing my mind. Staying focus on what God's words are in life and reading the Bible to enlighten my path.
THE SECRET PLACE IN GOD ~
Keeping our hearts tune to God word and allowing ourselves freedom to make right choices. To keep your mindset on God and pick a friend to walk through life with is important. I prayed one day for friends who wanted real friendships. It didn't happen overnight, but it was a process of me changed inside first. God I need to be restored by love. I need to challenge myself to grow stronger daily in God. I needed so much and it all had to begin at the starting line. Just like a race and someone says "GO". It doesn't matter how fast you get there, just get there!
I prayed now for those who read my blog. For you, your family and friends to find that amazing peace in each situation of life. To allow God to restore broken place and to past reminders of the past. To cherish life in the now and know that someday things will change again. In all the changes of life, God I am glad that you keep us safe in the shadow of you and in the secret place! The word of God matters, your choices matter and your mindset must be set on greater things ahead in this day.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.