It was one of the most scariest things of life. The day after it happened, I sat in my bed at the hospital replaying it. I stopped to give thanks to God for keeping me alive. Another chance to make a difference and realizing how precious another day can be. I also thought about things I could have done different. I learned a lot from this day.
NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED ~
The pain was so strong that I could not lay down. I just could not get comfortable and why I let it go on for hours was crazy. I knew it wasn't gas, but something was very wrong. I promised the emergency doctor to spread the word about this type of heart attack. There are different types and women experiences things different than men. If there is severe pressure in your chest and it won't let up, call 911. Never just drive to emergency or have someone drive you. It's best to get immediate attention and you get a quicker response than walking in.
THE DAY AFTER THE NEWS ~
I will continue to trust God and know he is faithful
Philippians 4:19 New International Version (NIV)
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Taking care of yourself physically and spiritual is so important. I believe hearing that I could have died within the first two hours, shocked my mind. I am not a doctor, but I just tried to get better by time and I needed emergency help. I liked to relate this to a spiritual walk of life too. There might be thoughts that hold you back from pressing into God. Maybe people who have hurt you or disappointed you in leadership. It paints a bad picture of what going to church is all about or the real connect with others. It's the devil's job to divide you from the truth and he doesn't want you to succeed in life. The devil attacks your heart and it can break your heart. God is a heart provider of new beginnings and connecting us to the right people.
I was telling someone yesterday about my dad. I want to share the real story about him. Yes, he was in his 50's and a new christian. He wanted to do everything God wanted and he truly gave his complete heart to God. A visiting preacher came through the church he attended and spoke of loving Jesus with all your heart. He said, "If you love Jesus, then you will stop taking medicine". What? This is a totally lie, but my dad wanted to live for Jesus. It's crazy how the devil can plant a thought. You never stop taking medication. My dad stop taking his shots for diabetes and had a sudden heart attack. I was 18 years old, I became very angry at God. I said I would never go to church the rest of my life. Anger filled my soul for almost one year. Keep in mind, this was in 1973 and it definitely wasn't the truth about medicine. It also wasn't a church that taught the Bible and my parents go mixed up in wrong teaching.
You may ask why I am sharing this. I felt too and the truth can help someone else. Churches are great, but there were churches in the 70's that taught wrong and were cults. Cults still happen and it's important to know what you are getting yourself into. It's a sad story about my dad, but I must admit, his choice was wrong and that's not God's fault.
I attend a healthy church for over 18 years that teaches the Bible and lives it. People make mistakes and people still get hurt because we are human. We must learn to let go of somethings and allow God to mend our hearts and grow up. Forgiveness is a key word here and we all need forgiveness. Was it my dad's time anyway to die? The Bible says we have a time to be born and to die. I stopped asking that question, I had to let go of church hurts and began my journey of trusting God. My 18 year old self never will forget how God helped me even when I didn't want his help.
2 Timothy 2:13 English Standard Version (ESV)
if we are faithless, he remains faithful--
for he cannot deny himself.
Isaiah 41:10 New International Version (NIV)
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED ~
Each of us have stories of life. From our young selves to our now selves. Life is short and we can't live in the pains of life, but the freedom of God. He doesn't want us to live in fear of yesterday or what might happen today. I keep telling my self this, "Self, you are okay and God has your life in his hands". I choose not to listen to negative voices that try to put fear in my heart, but keep a healthy heart with right thinking. Living a healthy life is not only physically, but spiritually too. Take care of you and allow God to bring peace in your heart. Nothing is too big for him and know that suddenly's happen to each of us. Suddenly I trusted God and he was right there!
I never want to paint a negative picture of church, but it was the truth about my dad in 1973. There are great churches that teach and live the Bible. We should never believe everyone we hear, but research things ourselves. I love my church and I want to invite you it. Hillside Christian Church 100 Anderson Road, Napa, CA. We have three services 9am, 11am and 6:30pm. If you don't have a home church, it's a great one.
THE DAY AFTER THE NEWS ~
My heart attack, I saw life different. The importance of a new day and connecting with family plus friends. We just don't know what a day will bring. I am so grateful to God, family and friends. Purpose this a good day. I truly thank God for new beginnings of life. My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.