GROWING UP ~
I found myself frustrated in life with my mom. I never quite understood her and she didn't understand me. I always wanted time with her and she never had time or did she? Sitting in a chair playing a cross word puzzle and not wiling to go outside with me. There were no iPhones then, but her time was spent on things she liked to do. I would be told to go to my room and play. I would cry in my room and she never knew it. Why was growing up so hard for me and wishing life would be better? Don't get me wrong, my mom wasn't a bad mom, but later in life, I learned things about her. It was some of her own choices that directed her path different than she wanted. She couldn't get over somethings and they held her back from freedom in God and family.
LIFE CHANGES ~
Deuteronomy 31:6 New International Version (NIV)Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Each of us have a childhood we remember. Somethings are happy and some are sad to us. It is part of who we are today. Growing and learning from the past can help us grow into a better person. I listen to others who can't seem to get over their childhood. I understand that is part, but I also understand we if don't get over it, we can see our now in God's freedom of life. We often miss out on things because we get held back by the enemy of our soul and God wants us to live in this day! I realize it is much easier said than done, but God's plan continues to unfold daily for us. Let us learn to be strong and courageous in whatever we face today.
As an adult, I look back to see how fast my kids grew up. Now they are kid/adults and I missed out on fun with them because I know I was frustrated over so much of life. It wasn't easy as a young mom and I was 32 when I lost my brother on Christmas Day and we lost our home in Pinole CA. Life changes were huge and I grew angry. I felt like God let me down in life but now I see he never let me down. It was my own choices and I got tired of others telling me God wanted my brother in Heaven. Yes, God's timing was for my brother to go to Heaven, but I had to process it and others judged me on my faith. That's another story but I learn to let go of what I could not change. I had to allow God to heal my heart and move forward in his grace. I needed a friend and often times we loose ourselves right after a death. Anyway, today is about freedom in God and in our lives. Do your best to count blessings daily and you will see how that helps you today.
There are good tears and hard times. Don't let the hard overpower the good ones. Be encouraged today and rest in knowing God is able. Thank you God for bring us through hard things and seeing how you can change our lives for the good. I am grateful for all the people who are in my life and loves me for me. Counting blessings!
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.