I did hear a message on faith one day and how God does miracles. It began to interest inside my head about faith and I was just a child, but not enough to go to church. I heard this scripture in Hebrews 11:1 ~ Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Holding onto to that scripture and not going back to church until I was 18 years old.
As I write this today, I began to cry. I was taught about faith, but I only saw hurts within the church. I didn't really believe or understand the path my life had taken. My dad would die when I was 18 years old and that began anger within my heart. I wanted my mom to stop crying, so I took her to church. Thinking that's the answer to no more tears. It wasn't the answer for my mom at that time, but I believe it helped her some. I know that grief is hard and it takes time in pressing forward after a death. Everyone handles things different.
I do believe we teach kids by example, but we also teach adults by example. As an adult, I can look back to my childhood and see the negative in my life, but also the good. That one message on faith, stayed within my heart and I reach out in a hurting time of life to God. I began to pray and ask for understand and peace on things I don't understand.
Matthew 6:6 (ESV)
But when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.
The promises that God makes are true. Maybe you wasn't raised in church and you don't know the word of God. Maybe's can continue on and only you know exactly where you are. God hears you and cares greatly. Sure there are times we remember and it might bring hurt with it. Only God can removed all the hurts and set your feet on a forward path. But it takes you saying yes to God and forgetting what you can't change.
The Bible says to train a child, but we might be older now and just beginning our walk with God. We come from different places of life, learn different and just don't quite get words written inside the Bible. It takes time for God to unfold somethings to us and for us to take steps in him. I look back on my life with my mom. Her mother died when she was only 5 years old. She was passed around within her family from brothers to sisters houses. She never felt like she fit anywhere. So when she had my brother and myself, she really didn't know how to be a mom or what to do at times. She became over protective and I felt like my childhood, teen-hood and adult hood was formed in some wrong thinking. Yet, one right thinking mode of God and faith.
You can not go back into your childhood and you must live in today! Yes, our childhood affects us and we do things to either better our lives or become bitter. I pray for those who read my blog, your family and friends. Only God can move within our hearts to change us. Be like the child who needs to learn daily and grow by the grace of God. He created you for purpose and wants you to have the desires of your heart as well. Go in God and watch him change you, then that changes reactions of others.
It is time to train ourselves in the way of the Lord. Stirring up some faith and reaching far into the sky to God. His plan is found in Jeremiah 29:11 A plan, A purpose and A future. God wants greater things for your life. When harder things hit your life, remind yourself of all the miracles God has done. Each day he creates a sky to remind us of his power. He can make the sun shine after a heavy rain. Disappointments come and victories happen. I know in whom I believe and I thank him for my life. Go ahead, give a shout out to God today and thank him for all you do have in this life.
Maybe you didn't know God when you were younger, but you certainly can know him today. It is simple to ask God into your heart. Ask God to forgive you of sin/mistakes and ask him to enter your heart. Read the word (Bible) and began to plant hope inside. It is a process of change and I'm happy you took the time today to read this. I always pray daily for the readers of my blog, your family and friends.
Here it is, a new day with new beginnings!