Romans 12:1-2 New International Version (NIV)
A Living Sacrifice
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
TIME ~ IS PRECIOUS
What if you knew today was your last day on earth? Would you live it different or share time with those you love? Would you leave the angry attitude alone and press toward God? So many questions and maybe no real answer. Often time we don't see what we do have in life or press toward God. We are stuck in our negative now and often complain or grumble about what we don't have in life. Life does take renewing our mindset as Romans 12:1-2 states.
I woke up today thinking about my brother. A man of faith and he lived his life best he could for God. He was told at 37 years olds old he had cancer and about six months to live. He got very sick, but kept his trust in God. My mom, my husband and children watched him decline over time. I became angry in my soul because he wasn't healed and left earth way too soon. I was 32 years old and the big wonder of why set in my mind. He died on Christmas day and Christmas was never the same.
My story continues from words of others and heartbreak of hearts. I would stop going to church for almost one year. My family would struggle to stay together and I saw my own actions needed to change. How do you let go of angry, frustration, disappointment and brokenness? Turning to a God who took your brother? My husband found a church in Vallejo and wanted us to try it. My children asked me please go Mom. So I went with them and found the Pastor speaking on the fruit of the spirit. All the things that did not feel my soul. My interested sparked and I felt this tug to ask God to forgive me of my wrong attitude.
Galatians 5:22-23 New International Version (NIV)But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
WOW ~ self control
Asking myself was I a good example to my children? Was a good example to my husband? Was my brokenness tearing my family apart? Was it really God tugging on my heart and I need to change? It felt weird inside and I went home that night full wanting a different lifestyle. We went back to church that night and I wanted to go the next Sunday. It was the beginning of a healing process for me. It didn't happen overnight, but it did happen over time.
I write you now at 62 years old and tell you that it begins inside of you. Whatever you face, whatever happened to you and a new day is here. Your life can change by your own attitude. God does have a plan and he does want us to live by the fruit of the spirit. All those good things that brings joy to our hearts.
RENEWED HOPE ~
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 New International Version (NIV)A Time for EverythingThere is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.