Proverbs 3:5-6 New International Version (NIV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
I would wait to hear the news on how Tracy was by phone. I stayed at the house with baby Averie and the three boys. Just writing this today brings back so many tears and memories of the hard year everyone would face. Her husband would call to say this, "Tracy is being air lifted by helicopter to Stanford Hospital. She needs more testing but it looks like a brain bleed and she needs a specialist. The worse news ever and my heart hurt so bad. I had to tell myself to breath and call my son and his girlfriend to come. Then I called Darlene and others to pray. I had my son calls people to pray as well.
Friends, we never know what a new day will bring. Yes, a year later, Tracy is at Disneyland with her daughter and I cried everyday in thanks unto God. I see the last year of pain, struggles, hard to deal with a new normal in her head, but I also see miracles of life. Miracles of being able to walk again alone and function without help. I see how God gave her back so much and baby Averie. We take things for granted like walking and doing things for ourselves. We just never know about things and we must give thanks daily for being alive. There is a plan, a promise and a future for each of us. That is stated in Jeremiah 29:11.
Friends, I am in tears writing this and I thank God for this trip. Last year, we sat in a dark room because Tracy could not have light in the room. She has months of recovery and so much pain. I see her today packing up things here and the joy of this trip can not be measured. As I heard people comparing about prices, crowds and kids, I stood back and thanked God for my daughter's life. My children and grandchild are a gift from God and I cherish moments with them. I see the joys of Disneyland but I feel the joy of my Lord in my heart. Tracy is alive and well. I saw the darkness for months along with Tracy but not the depth that she saw it. I felt the hope of miracles, but she couldn't feel that at first. We look back on this past year and tell God thank you for helping us through it.
We had other family and friends who stayed faithfully beside us through this past year. We thank God for each of them and food that brought to Tracy's house too. Not everyone knowns the story of the dark room but I wrote about it on my blog. God took the darkness away and started shining his life of hope inside our hearts. People who were faithful in prayer encouraged us too.
Hebrews 10:24-25 New International Version (NIV)
And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
God is faithful and surrounds our lives with those who truly care about us. Tears of love pour in situations we can't change, but holding tight to faith, hope and love. God brought Tracy through so much and it certainly wasn't easy. I hope you see the joys of your own life, be happy for those happy and be there for those who need you. I hope you feel the same hope inside your heart for yourself. God is good all the time and all the time, God is good!
Purpose this day a good day. Thank you for all those who prayed and stayed in our lives during this past year. I value your friendship and support far more than words can say. Tears of joy for real friends and love with all my heart. To the readers of my blog, I stand faithful in prayer for you, your family and friends too. Nothing is too big for God, nothing!
Tracy, just as you hold your baby Averie, I see you as my baby Tracy and first born child. My love is that big for you too. I think that's my name is now GRANDMOM because it is GRAND seeing Averie plus all my other GRANDCHILDREN. I love being a GRAMMIE and your mom. Thank you God again and again for LIFE.