I was a happy teenager getting ready for the fair with friends. The year was 1973. I just graduated high school and in a few weeks, my dad would die suddenly inside our bathroom with a heart attack. My mom would begin to cry out at night to die. It got the best of me and I would end up in emergency with my nerves. The doctor would tell my Aunt Pearl, I needed a life change. College would begin for me and I focused on helping my mom get better. I can look back to see that I took on a lot as a teenager. It felt like my lost my dad and mom on the same day. Her journey continued for the next 40 years. Never to remarry or really live life again. She stays so frustrated and always talked about the past.
ONE DAY ~
My life would change forever when my dad died......
Ephesians 3:20-21 New King James Version (NKJV)
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
ONE DAY ~
I asked Jesus to come into my heart. I saw how life changes suddenly and I was so angry at God. I was also angry at my mom for not being there for me. I never saw a dead person in my life before my dad. I felt so sheltered, plus unschooled about life and death. There wasn't iPhone's or iPads when I was a teenager. We did have telephones but I found that I had no one to call after graduation. Life would move forward and months later, I would take my mom to church thinking it would help her. I found out in time, it helped me more than her. I began to listen to what the preacher said, but I learned more from a young girl in her 30's who just had lost her dad. A connection was made and she told her story. She also told the importance of letting Jesus into your heart.
ONE DAY ~
I gave my heart to Jesus and my life changed....
It was the beginning of learning about God and his commandments.
The Ten Commandments20 And God spoke all these words:
2 “I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.
3 “You shall have no other gods before me.
4 “You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.
7 “You shall not misuse the name of the Lord your God, for the Lord will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.
8 “Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. 11 For in six days the Lordmade the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.
12 “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.
13 “You shall not murder.
14 “You shall not commit adultery.
15 “You shall not steal.
16 “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.
17 “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house. You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his male or female servant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.”
ONE DAY ~
It is simply about doing what is right in life. Keeping the right attitude and following the ten commandments of life. Being a good person is the only choice for me. I find myself looking for people who are liked minded with kindness. I prayed that God would send me right friendships and teach me everyday of my life. The journey began when I was young and still continues daily. Learning is what I love to do and sharing kindness to others. There came a day when I needed to share kindness to myself and forgive myself of things in life. I was told once from a friend this, "everyone has a sheleton in their closet". I understand that more today than ever. Our past is our past, our now is our now and new beginnings happen for a reason. We can grow from the past into a better person or bitter. What's your choice? Mine is better.
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.