WHEN ARE THINGS GOING TO CHANGE ~
Each season of life holds a purpose and I must stay in my season. It's often hard not compare lives with someone else.
Psalm 46 (NIV) For the director of music
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
8 Come and see what the Lord has done,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease
to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
he burns the shields with fire.
10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
11 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Let us remind ourselves who is in charge of our lives. God answers our prayers, but there are times when we are taken through hard days. Days that we must remind ourselves that God is ever-present in trouble. God is also present in non-troubled time too.
I heard someone say yesterday, that they could not imagine getting mad at God for anything. I understand the statement, but when you face certain things in life, you just wonder where God is during your season of hard stuff. I've been mad at God before and I didn't understand why I saw what I did at 18 years old when my dad died. I've been mad at God when we lost the house I love in Pinole CA. I never wanted to move from that house. I have seen seasons come in life and go in life. Through it all, I've learned and changed my mindset like the seasons of life.
It wasn't God's fault and he often gets blamed for things in life. It was our (my husband and I) financial choice to move and listen to others. It was God's timing for my dad to enter Heaven. The Bible speaks of a time for all things in Ecclesiastes Chapter 3.
MY SEASON ~
Has brought me from much sorrow and into viewing things different. I know there is a season for all things and I value that God forgives my lack of trust at times. I'm older now and I can look back at seasons of life and feel the relief that season is over. I think about how I wished I had done things different but I didn't. I can't stay stuck in what I didn't do, but move forward in what I can learn from it and what I can do today different. I can write and teach to never loose your voice in life.
My life is valuable and others can learn from my experiences of change. God looks at the heart and he knows us from the inside. When things feel out of control, I turn it to God. Allowing him freedom to mold me and keep me through it all. Times of asking forgiveness and times of letting go. Each of us hold a story and a season that we remember best.
OWNING IT ~
Somethings in life I do not own, but I'm invited to be a part of in life. I have wants in life and desires of my heart. I may not certain things I thought I would of by this point in life, but life isn't over yet. God says that he will give the desires of your heart. Each decision affects my now and my future. It also affects my family and friends. I had some wonder last night and I heard God say this:
God says to BE STILL and know that I am GOD!
My prayers continue to be with you, you family and friends.