My family was made up of my Dad, Mom, Brother and Me. It's crazy to think that they live in Heaven now and I live on earth. I was 18 years old when my dad died, 32 years old when my brother died and 57 when my mom died. Leaving a change of life in each experience and new normals would take place.
MY BROTHER ~ Ronnie, had cancer. He found out on his birthday in April and went to Heaven on Christmas morning that same year. I became very angry inside my heart. I had prayed to God for a miracle of health for him. My family at 32 was my husband, my young daughter and young son. Two little kids who woke up excited to open Christmas gifts. We begun opening gifts, when we got a telephone call from the hospital. Ronnie's time was short and we needed to go immediately to the hospital. Opening gifts would be put on hold and I found myself in a world of shock. I truly thought my brother would get a Christmas miracle of health.
MY BROTHER ~ Ronnie was at peace with God. He knew that he was leaving this earth and spoke words to me that I still remember today. I was crying and had some regrets of not opening gifts a week prior to all of this, when he wanted too. Ronnie told me to live as if today was your last day on earth, but plan for tomorrow. Those words stayed within my heart. I truly believe my brother rocks and he is in a much better place with no more pain.
Life circumstances changes us within. As I was teaching about my brother and his leaving earth on Christmas Day, a young woman spoke up and told me that her brother went to heaven on Christmas Day too. Of course it was years apart, but we could relate on a different level. We understand that Christmas is about Jesus and life/death is up to God. His timing is unknown and we must trust beyond measure.
Years would pass by and my mother would take a big fall on Christmas Morning about 10am. She would break her hip, need surgery and never recover from it. She would live the rest of her life inside a care home and my life experiences would begin to change again. Christmas morning about 10am was when the hospital had called about my brother. So my family and I, have experience much change on Christmas Day!
I also have another Christmas Day Experience ~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!
Luke 2:1-20 (NIV)The Birth of Jesus
2 In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. 2 (This was the first census that took place while[a] Quirinius was governor of Syria.) 3 And everyone went to their own town to register.
4 So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. 5 He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. 6 While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, 7 and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.
8 And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night.9 An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah,the Lord. 12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”
13 Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14 “Glory to God in the highest heaven,
and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”
15 When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”
16 So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.17 When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18 and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20 The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.
Is given by God and taken by God
God gave us his only son JESUS ~ A brother who rocks!
He tells us stories throughout the Bible and gives us a roadmap to follow. Let us not forget to give him thanks in all seasons of life. YES, many do not believe today is Jesus Birthday, but it is the day we celebrate it. YES, it is the day that others believe in Santa and their children are excited. Life is full of changes and what we do with our now is important. Let go of what you can't change and change you!
Hold tight to God's promises.
When I was 32 years old, my bother had just went to Heaven and I heard words from the Pastor/church people who were hoping he would die soon, so they could go home. Anger filled my soul and I told them to leave now. It wasn't but a few minutes and Ronnie would be gone. My loss was big, I saw my mom cry beyond words and I felt a whole in my heart. See, when it happens to you or your family, it matters lots. There are people who God gives us to walk through life with and they are important. Time would pass and it would take almost 1 year before I went back to church. I never went back to that church again. I found JESUS as my rock and I needed to find a place of worship again. My husband and I did that. It would change our lives once again. So if you need to begin again, DO IT ~
I saw how God answered many of my prayers in life. He even answered the prayer of my brother. My brother prayed if it was his time, that God would just take him home to Heaven. I prayed that he would not be in pain anymore and he wasn't. I know it might sounds strange and it did take time, but God allowed me space and still drew me back to him. I am different today, because of this. I'm glad that God gives us another chance to forgive and to help us move forward after a deep pain in our hearts. Oh, it never goes away missing him, my mom or my brother, but I understand that is how life is. A time to be born and a time to go to Heaven. Through it all, trust in God and write me, if you need to talk at Janet@youdontknoweven.org
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS ~
My prayers continue for the reader of my blog, your families and friends.
MERRY CHRISTMAS and MANY BLESSINGS!