ONE WORD ~ KINDNESS
The Bible speaks of a season for all things. I woke today thinking about my mom in Heaven. She was born on this day 13th in 1929. I had a dream about her last night. She was happy, running around, and not in a wheel chair anymore. It was a bright light around her. She was experiencing kindness everywhere she went.
The story continues as it was a dream but when I realized it was her birthday and she now lives in Heaven, I know that God was showing me she lives in peace. The old things are past away and she has become new. No more pain, sorrows or despair of life. I have learned so much since her leaving earth. I used to be so frustrated with her because she was always depressed, sad and speaking of my dad and brother who were in Heaven. I only wanted her to live in this life with me and my family. Her sorrow kept her from joys and freedom of a new day. I'm not saying it's easy, because it is crazy hard. But the ones left behind, like me or my kids, miss out. I feel like I lost my mom on the dad my dad died. She was in her early 40's and I was 18.
The Bibles says:
Ecclesiastes 3New International Version (NIV)A Time for Everything3 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
KINDNESS ~ I've done my best sharing kindness over the years. Sometimes it feels like it's not enough. I cry a lot because I do miss loved ones gone onto Heaven, but I also hurt for those who I know that hurt. Seeing Lakai go to Heaven when he was 4 years old and Brookley cry because she missed her preschool friend. She women who loose babies and they don't understand the why of it. A sudden accident, sickness or sorrows that brings our hearts because the season changes. Heave is the goal and I know that, but those left on earth are the ones who experiences the sorrow, while the ones enter Heaven now experience newness.
In all seasons of life, I have learned to trust the Lord beyond limits. Grief never goes away, but we learn how to deal with it. Each of us deal different and it still remains the same that God is faithful. Faithful to connect our lives to other humans and faithful that only he can mend a broken heart. I hear the cries of people at times. Times of not understanding life and missing out on what they do have in life. I see that is what my mom did. Sure she missed my dad and my brother, but she had me still and I have two kids. Not only that but my son has two kids and that makes my mom having two beautiful granddaughters. I do my best to speak kind word about my mom. Keeping her memory alive and knowing that she did make a difference in my life.
My mom lived in fear of the unknown. She was only 5 when her mother died. She lived with different brothers and sisters over her lifetime. Never having a room to call her own or having the things she wanted in life. She felt like her voice wasn't heard and she missed out on so much. I did learn a lot after she passed away. I wish I had those moments of talking and sharing but I don't. So I share with you on making the best of each day. I share with you a woman who only wanted love and felt so alone. My mom did her best and I believe that. She did believe in God and in her last days at the care home she shared her faith and lives where changed. I didn't know that until after she passed. I thank God for stories and I do believe that my life helped her very much.
Friends, connect with those you care about today. For those who are missing loved ones greatly, I'm right there with you. Life changes things and it changes us. Let us become better people through it all and not bitter! It's a new day filled with great opportunities. Opportunities to share life with someone else or maybe a lot of people. Tonight, I go with Darlene to share some life with Foster Kids. Turning my thoughts right now to making a difference and knowing my mom is happy in Heaven.
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends. My prayers continue for Lakai' mom (Ariel) and their family. My prayers continue for my niece Amy and her kids. Her husband (Sean) went to Heaven at 40 years old, leaving behind 3 boys and 1 girl. My new friend (Yolanda) as her daughter rest in Heaven. Just a few people I would ask you to continue prayers for today. Life changes and we learn a new normal. Remember that God remains the same and loves you BIG! Back the scriptures above, there is a season for all things my friends.
I care and my prayers are with you! Remember kindness today, we never know what one life is going through. I'm thankful that I turned my heart to God and he began to change me from the inside out.