SECOND CHANCE or THIRD CHANCE
Romans 8:28 (NIV)
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
As I heard the doctor say, "Somebody must want you to live because you beat the odds". I had the first pain at midnight and didn't go to the hospital until about 5am. She said most people don't make it past two hours. It is important to call 911 and get help immediately. I over thought what was wrong, I thought it might be gas but I honestly knew it wasn't. I want to be totally honest, I didn't want to believe it was my heart. I will never forget the words of the doctor when I was told the options of what was next.
I know that God has a plan for my life. It was in the waters of Cabo in 2004 that I said yes to God to teach and lead women. It was this past Wednesday that I recommitted to write a book and follow through on what I told God I would do. My yes to him matters and I want to be faithful in all I do. God is also faithful back to us. The Bible says:
1 Thessalonians 5:24 English Standard Version (ESV)
He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.
I read a book called, "She Persisted". It is about 13 women who made a difference in the world. They persisted through different things and stand out. One person's yes and how it makes a difference to many. I want to be a person who makes a difference too. Ever since Wednesday, I know without a doubt that I am loved. I saw the out pouring messages over Facebook, texting and calls. So many who want to help and will make themselves available to me. Now that is love and true caring of hearts. I realize that most people never realize the depth of how they are loved until after death. Then they don't really hear it, but I have been blest to hear words this week. To know the depth of love and caring towards my life. This is why I wanted to write this blog about she persisted. I have overcome my own negative thoughts of life, mistakes and challenges. Leading me to write and share hope with others. God connects lives on purpose and suddenly happens to all of us. Know who to put your trust in and live in today.
I was scared Wednesday and I know that God was able. It was is much easier said than done to trust that all will be okay. I knew whatever happen to me God was with me. I wanted my family with me and I felt like a little kid inside. Maybe it's the little girl inside of me, but I felt the need for my mom. My mom lives in heaven now and I realized how she must have felt when she had a heart attack. Scared is normal but we don't need to live in fear. I called Darlene to put out a prayer request for me and come to the hospital. I saw how 145 women were praying and many more. I thank God for friends who care and show it. If you ever have a pressure in your chest that won't go away and it strong, call 911. Check out signs of heart attacks and know it's not a age thing. It can happen and I should have never waited hours to go. I'm giving thanks to God for life today and all my amazing family plus friends. I am a blest beyond words. I will write the book and share hope with others.
My daughter had gone through a similar test a year ago. I was scared for her, but I saw her face things she had no choice in. I've always looked at her as brave and a strong woman. She sat with me as they were prepping me for the test. She said think about, "they had to go all the way to my brain with this test". That became such a light switch moment for me. I knew if she did, I could do this and it wasn't as bad as hers. I have learned much from her life and so glad she is my daughter. I had to call up the strong woman in me.
Purpose to live in today and never take life for granted. My prayers continue for each of you, your family and friends. Thank you for taking time to read this and I would ask for your prayers as well. I am much better, but feel weak still. Happy new day!
NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED