Proverbs 15:13 New International Version (NIV)
A happy heart makes the face cheerful,
but heartache crushes the spirit.
HAPPY IS MY HEART ~
A happy heart makes the face cheerful
I realize that not everyone is happy in this world. Many people live in anger and that crushes the spirit. It brings heartache to lives and people tend to be mean to others. Each day is another chance to make life better or bitter. I am a person who lived in anger for almost one year and I didn't like who I became. I quit going to church and tried not talking to God. I felt like God let me down.
Here is the story:My brother was 37 years old and heard on his birthday he had cancer. There was no real hope for him according to doctors. They gave him about 6 months to live. He actually lived 8 months and went to Heaven on Christmas Day. The day he died, I heard words that broke my heart by leaders of our church. It's not the church I attend now, I quit that church after my brother's death. My husband and I walked into the waiting room to hear this words, "I wish he would hurry up and die, so we can go home to our families". Others in that room agreed. Then I just said, "go home now". I didn't see it their way, I saw it as family but we wasn't family at all. They went home and about not long after, my brother died. My heart was sad and as I replied their words, I grew angry.
Life can be hard, but truth is this, bad happens to each of us. How we deal with it, matters. I realize the church family wasn't family at all and they had real family at home. Since that time, my husband and I keep our hearts guarded by words of others and who becomes real family to us. We do have a great church family now and people who are right there when the worst happens. I'll never forget how Darlene came immediately to the hospital when she heard I had a heart attack. I've known her for 30 years and church brought us together by God's plan. We did become friends and family. Sometimes we must purpose to let anger go and let God heal our hearts. Broken and lost is what the devil wants you to feel, but God has a plan to connect your life to someone else. Actually, to lots of people and that might be by letting down your own walls of hurt or disappointments by others.
God is good all the time and all the time God is good!
I am glad I started going to church again, it has lead me to Napa and finding a great church filled with people who are human, just like me. Doing our best to serve others and make ourselves better.
My heart became happy again when I looked at the people around me. My children and husband were sad too, but needed my joy, just like I needed their joy. The joy of the Lord is truly our strength. Purpose happy and purpose fun in your life. Be a kid, even if your an adult in fun times. My thoughts and prayers continue for the readers of my blog, your family and friends.