I prayed about what to write today and I just felt to share my heart. When my dad died and I was only a teenager, my mom wanted to die too. She would cry out at night to God to take her. I would lay in my bed and wonder what I would do if my mom died too. I had never seen a dead person before my dad. My first experience of death and now my mom wants to die. The stress of life had hit me at 18 and tears unbelievable in my heart and eyes.
I was mad at God because my dad left earth and he was a man who believed big in God. To walk by faith and not sight. But now I see how some of his health decisions were not the best. He went to a church service where a man spoke of trusting God and believing that you should not take medicine. My dad was a diabetic and had to take a daily shot. Well, the story goes like this, he stop taking his shots and had a suddenly heart attack. The rest of the story ended and he died inside our house. My eyes see different today. That wasn't a God moment at all, it was his choice moment of a man who didn't speak the truth at church. God gave medicine to heal us and help us. People go to school to study and become wise in medicine to help us. Never stop taking medicine and use wisdom in what you take.
I take medicine the doctor gives me now. I am not a diabetic and must watch my eating habits too. But we are here to talk about Fathers Day. Each of us experienced something different as children. Even growing up in the same home you can come out different. Each being taught the same thing and your choices determines your future. I love going to Church now because it's a place of praise and connections. I grew wiser as the years went on and I know now that my choices matter. God created me for purpose and that His love is a Father's Love that never stops. His words within the Bible are true and sets our feet on paths of greatness. It's all about choices, surrendering our will to God's will and doing the right thing.
I praise God for food on a daily bases, for a home to live in and thankful he uses my fingers to write you. I don't take anything for granted and cherish moments in each day. A simple smile or a hug is amazing. A room of kids laughing and enjoying life. No worries and just being a kid is fun to watch. Over the last few days, I've heard kids wanting to buy their dad something for father's day but the mom is not doing it. They forgot that the little child see's tv commercials on what to buy dad or has that deep desire to treat him good. Bitterness is ugly and we need to treat others with love, grace and mercy as God has treated us. Maybe the dad wasn't a dad at all, but the chill doesn't know that the depth of a hurt. He or she only knows the depth of the love they have for him. I hope this helps someone today to see that our decisions makes a difference. Our choices affects others and a child can carry that moment forever.
Make sure your moments today are great. Thinking over one great thing and counting blessings from a Father who forgave each of us and wants the best for each of us. God promises to give us the desires of our hearts. I'm praying today for you, your families and friends. Purpose this the best day you can. Praying for those who miss their dad, husband, grandfather or child in Heaven today. It's hard to understand the timing of God on things, but God's timing of your birth was purposed and here you are reading this. God bless you on this day and everyday.