My answer is yes. I don't think that everyone will understand me because they haven't seen the things I've seen. From being a small child to my now, it has changed the way I think about things. I watched my mom go through some deep depression in her life. Things she just couldn't move pass or even through at times.
My mom would keep our house dark after my dad went to Heaven. I was a 18 year old girl had just graduated high school. I didn't like where I was in life. I found myself getting depressed and needing to go to emergency room one day. The doctor wondered what I had gone thorough to be in this much pain inside. I remember hearing my aunt tell the doctor, "her dad just died and her mom lays on the couch crying to die every day". My mom's pain got to me and my own pain. The doctor gave me nerve pills and I still didn't know how to deal with my life. I didn't have Jesus in my heart at this point. I was actually mad at God for not helping my dad live.
Fast forward about 6 months and I would decide that taking my mom to church would help her. I didn't like church at all, but I knew my mom and dad did. So let's give that a try. I think it began to help her, but wasn't the complete answer. Her doctor would advise her to go talk to a counselor (Doctor) for mental health. She did and I began to see a change by going to church, medication and talking to the doctor. I remember driving her to this doctor twice a week and sitting in a car in Richmond CA for 1 hour at each visit. There was a hot dog place on the corner and I remember wishing I had money to buy a hot dog and something to drink. Life was hard and our money was slim. I can see how sadness can over power your life and the importance of connecting to a positive source.
As I continue to talk my mom to church, I found Jesus myself. I let go of angry slowly and began to learn more about God and the plan he had for my life. I wasn't a church going person or even understood very much about it as a kid or teenager. I would meet Terry (My husband) there and I called him Mr. Bible. He knew the importance of faith and building your life on God. It was my new beginning and a process of change over time. We would know each other 4 years before we got married. God had a plan that I couldn't see at all.
My mom now rest in Heaven and I have motions, I wish she were here so we could talk about it. I love this statement in the picture, "one step at a time". We can not change people, but we can be there for them. Through out the Bible, God speaks:
Psalm 40:1-4 (NIV)
1 I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord
and put their trust in him.
4 Blessed is the one
who trusts in the Lord,
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods.
DEPRESSION ~ is real and can present fear
The Dictionary says:
- : a state of feeling sad
- : a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way
- : a period of time in which there is little economic activity and many people do not have jobs
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
God has not gives us the spirit of fear. The devil tries to tear us apart and put fear inside of us. We must remember the rest of this scripture, "but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind". There is a bigger picture to life than fear or depression. Often times the doctor gives medication for depression and also wants you to talk with someone. It is not meant that we are alone through life. Reaching out is very important and we need others in our lives. I'm not an expert on depression, but I have certainly seen a lot in my life with my mom and others. I've even felt my depression through my dad's death.
Yesterday, my granddaughter (Brookley) said, "you must be so sad". I looked at her and said, "I am not sad, why would you say that?" She said, "Because your family (mom,dad,brother) live in heaven and you are alone". I said, "I'm not alone, I have you and your sisters. I explained extended family to her and so many people at our church". She began to smile and said, "Oh yeah".
There will be sad times in our lives. Moments we need to press through and hold tight to hope, faith and trust in God bigger than ever. There will be refreshing moments as well. Times of seeing the blessings beyond the pain of things. Times of learning to believing more. Some people had told me they wish they had my faith. My faith didn't come over night. It has been a process through pain and tears. Learning the Bible and to trust bigger than I could ever imagine. I still have moments and need an encouraging word too. That's why we have each other. The Bible says:
Hebrews 10:24-25 (NIV)
24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends! If you feel lost, find someone to talk too. You can always google depression, tell your doctor and reach out. If you know someone depressed, advise them to get help too. All we can do is be there for someone and do our best. I had to learn to let go of my mom in some areas. She just didn't want to get better but stay in anger of wrong choices in life. I am not going to tell her complete story. But I see the importance of counselors in lives. Depression is deeper than I know about. I am not a license counselor. Please get help if you need it.