Psalm 51:10-12 New International Version (NIV)
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
Daily, I think about this scripture above. I ask God to renew a right spirit within me and help me to follow his plan for my life. I see the importance of right choices and staying connected in God's house. God gives us free will to make choices daily. I have found my life in peace when I choose to start my day with giving thanks to God. Sure things will happen and I might get frustrated in a new day, but God's amazing grace and love remains the same.
CHANGING HABITS ~
Sometimes we must let go of some habits of life
I often think of my mom and how she couldn't press forward in life after my dad's death. I know there is a time to mourn but there is also a time to life again. She would stuck for almost 40 years and the anger seem to build in her. She got stuck on why did God take him away from her. My dad was 53 when he died from a heart attack inside our home. My mom was 44 years old. Such a young woman and it was in her 80's when she found a boyfriend in her assistant living place. I often wonder what her life would have been like if she could have changed her habits. I have always felt like I loss my dad and mom on that same day in 1973. I was only 18 years old and hard to deal with it. I made a choice to deal with myself and try to help her.
MY CHOICE ~
I decided to take her to church and try letting God help her. That change of habit of going to church brought new life to me, but she was still stuck. Later in life, I found out that she begin to speak of faith in the care home she lived in. She had something deep inside of her that was faith and she began to tell others about God. I didn't know that until after she died. A worker at the care home told me. My mom's lead looks sad to me. She was only 5 years old when her mother died. She was passed around to brothers and sisters homes. She was the last of 14 children to be born. She had two children my brother and I. She had two grandchildren but never did much with them. She also had two great grandchildren. My mom was lost inside of herself for many reasons. I could see the greatness in her, but she never quite got that. Never doubt that someone needs to see the Jesus inside of you, to help them.
I share this story today because maybe your know someone lost inside of themselves. Do your best to help them but don't take on their sorrow. It drained me over time and I lost the value of my mom. Now I get it, but it's too late to hug her or do things different. I did my best and I must let go of what I can't change this day.
Death is not my fault and I am not the creator of life. God knows my attentions were good toward my mom and now I can help someone else live again. I have a friend named Laura who lost her husband in a motorcycle accident. So young and so sad in many ways. I told her that I wanted to help her see life when a teenagers eyes. She had teenagers and I do believe my story helped her. Years later, she still misses her husband greatly but she writes a blog to encourage others. Our deepest sorrows, can help someone else move forward in life. I'm proud of her and she is a great example to many.
Through the pain, through the sorrow and through the joys of life, Jesus remains the same. God's plan from the beginning of life is to give us free will, choices, and ability to serve him with all our hearts. I know loss is hard, but it is in the plan of God to be born and to die. This day, you are alive and live in this day! Create new memories while process old ones. Let the joy of the lord be your strength! I just felt like sharing this today because someone needs to read it. Please pass it onto your friends too.
My prayers continue for the readers of my blog, your family and friends.