There is a tool called a wedge and used with a hammer, it can slip something open. The devil tries to do that with our hearts. If he can cause a crack in our heart, he uses it to divide us. I remember being 18 and my dad dying suddenly in our home. At that point, I disliked church people so much. Words not spoken with wisdom still play over in my mind at times. I had to grow up and learn the difference in what was real and not real. I had to let go of some words that were said to me. I see it now as a great divide from God in life and not in my life.
Romans 16:17-20 New International Version (NIV)
17 I urge you, brothers and sisters, to watch out for those who cause divisions and put obstacles in your way that are contrary to the teaching you have learned. Keep away from them. 18 For such people are not serving our Lord Christ, but their own appetites. By smooth talk and flattery they deceive the minds of naive people. 19 Everyone has heard about your obedience, so I rejoice because of you; but I want you to be wise about what is good, and innocent about what is evil.
20 The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet.
The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.
CAN I BE REAL ~
The church people who spoke those words to me, were not following what was true. I didn't go to church at 18 years old when my dad died. It took awhile for me to see that the people who spoke this, was taught wrong too. It was like a cult. I'm saying this today, because we search for the truth and the bible says that truth with set us free.
John 8:31-32 English Standard Version (ESV)The Truth Will Set You Free31 So Jesus said to the Jews who had believed him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, 32 and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
I found the truth in God and I began to read the Bible for myself. I learned of scriptures and faith. I learned that we all make mistakes but words can last a lifetime. Being positive and sharing hope is just part of who I am. I've been in the great divide the devil created in my life, the truth and living for Jesus. I had to let go of words at 18 years old and grow from that point. Not everybody who attends a church is lead by God.
I FOUND THE TRUTH ~
I had a new view of life. Looking through eyes of hope, courage, growing in wisdom, and believing big that God can change things for the best. I had a choice to grow into a bitter person of my past or a better person as my future continued. You have that same choice. None of us are the same, our past is real and we carry baggage. I happen to find the truth and got rid of the old baggage of life. What did God say about me and how can he help me? God speaks of renewing my mind and becoming his example of what is true.
JESUS LOVES YOU ~
I don't know why certain things happen in our lives. I don't know why my daughter and son in law's house burned down in the Napa fires. They only had the clothes on their backs. How did some home make it through the worst fires of Napa and Sonoma? Yet, through this terrible time, I saw my daughter and her family received such an out pouring of love. People sent money, clothes, prayers and it amazed me in the amount of people who cared. They stayed with us for about 8 days and people continue to come by, call or Facebook messages months later. Sometimes we must just find the good in the hard stuff.
Holding on to the truth is so important about Jesus. I know he loves me and he loves you. I know this sometimes isn't about love, but about holding on. I remember a time when my heart was just broken. It was hard to breathe and I called Darlene. I asked her to not say a word, but listen. I was upset, needed to vent and cry over a situation. She totally listen and I knew she would pray when we hung up. I didn't want to hear that God had this situation. I just wanted to be real and say it was crazy hard, I didn't understand and I was broken. God has a way to put people in our lives we can be real with. Times of bring broken, times of being healed and even miracles can take place. We don't walk this life alone unless we choose too.
PRAYER WORKS ~
Let go of what you can't change, deal with it in a positive way. Cry, vent, scream, but return to God with a heart of surrender quickly. As I read the Bible, there is a time for all things. This is the time to give God your total heart, let him restore you from in the inside out. God is able to handle your past, your not and created a new way of thinking. Maybe you don't need anything today and in a good place. Then pray for those who do hurt. Every day of life, there is someone hurting and might just need a smile that you can give.
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.