NEW BEGINNINGS ~
A blank page is before you right now
SCARS ~ are often thought of as reminders of things we have been through. I had a tiny scar are my left wrist that reminds me of an accident in the water. It brings my mind back to fear and suddenly I am reminded that God began a new work inside my heart that day. That is where I said yes to God in teaching women. Fast forward years and I began writing a blog to share hope of a new day.
Jeremiah 29:11 A plan, A promise and A future
This verse above holds true for each of us. God has created you for wonders and to live a happy life. We often miss out on things because the past holds us back. The past wasn't meant to stop us forever, but to teach us things, learn from them and share experiences with others who need that hope. I saw a young man yesterday whose Mother died when he was just beginning college. She was a single mom and his life. His face holds a smile but his heart holds broken pieces. I know him and I knew his mother. I asked him if we would meet soon for tea or coffee by where he works. He said yes and I will make that happen.
My story goes from being a 18 year old girl who just finished high school. Excited about the future and what was in store for me. Finding a job and making a great life of money was my goal. Then suddenly one Saturday morning, we would hear a thump in our house and my dad would be locked inside a bathroom. A bathroom that would hold tears for life because we couldn't go in there anymore. Little did I know that day my mom would start the process of wanting to die also. She could see that she had me and my brother still, but the pain consumed her for 40 years later.
Moving past the broken pieces is not always an option for some. Some chose to stay in the broken pieces and others chose to move through them as pain continues. It's not easy loosing a mom, dad, brother, child, friend, causing and the list goes on. It's terrible when you see God has a mean God and a God who doesn't get it. I cried myself to sleep for years after my dad died. I became the responsible one in finding a part time job while goes to College. I would complete College and go to work to help my mom. I took on way too much and I see that now, But I did what I knew to do.
The Broken Pieces continued inside of me, while a half way smile tried hard to appear. I didn't get it, I didn't understand and I felt I lost so much on one day of life. It is in those broken pieces of my life that I still feel the pain as I look into someone's eyes who lost someone dear to them. It is there that God has created a compassion and true caring for others. It is there that write daily and I share hope to others.
Everyday of life, someone looses someone. It happens to both male and female on this earth. The pain of giving and taking away from us. It wasn't suppose to be this way and I watch someone cry. It was suppose to be a house, a white picket fence, a dog and children. The dream that came but ended way too soon. The home that knows despair and the divorce that separated children in time frames. The homes that broken pieces ended up in Foster Care and wondering child through little minds.
Broken Pieces continue throughout lives and we need to learn to pick ourselves up to see what is in front of us. A new day and yes pain of loosing a life, a job, a home, a car, an animal and that list goes on. God is a God who restores lives and helps through all season of it. God is a choice today to give it all to him and allow those scars to remind of you of how great he really is to us. God said in his work, he gives and takes away. A season for all things and hope must be in a new day.
GOD HAS THIS ~
To many days have I spent trying to make others happy and sacrifice things in life. I was taught that as a child and grew into a teenager much confused about life. Feeling alone and wanting one friend who cared. I believe God heard that cry of a little girl who needs to feel his love and the love of others. Life certainly has not turned out like I thought to this point, but in some ways, much greater than I thought. The things that are inside of my heart is time. Time with family and friends. Time with those who care about me and I care about them. But also time, when those who hurt and can't see past their today.
Today is taken a deep breathe and the wonder of just another day. NOPE, it's not just another day, but a day that God gave you free will and a roadmap (Bible) to live by. Go today in the peace of God and allow those broken pieces to be stepping stones to victory. Victory of a smile again and life changing experiences with others. Not everyone can get out of their house today and I write to say open your door and see the beauty of a new day.
I put into my mind that one day I would be a person who lived by kindness. If I died today, I would know I did my best today. I have sinned, I have asked forgiveness to God and people, I line my life up daily to peace and allow God to use me. I cry and I smile. I am no different than you and I see the victory of life through broken pieces. Here I am, writing you and know that you are not alone in life. Someone is praying and someone cares greatly ~ God and ME!
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.