It would be months later and I decided to take my mom to church. Maybe that would help her and she would stop crying so much. I don't think it really helped her because her choice was to keep the deep grief going. She couldn't seem to balance the loss and the life in front of her. Sure there is a length of time this happens but as some point, I just needed her as my mom again. I needed guidance and I was the one who stepped up to guide the family in her brokenness. Well a long story short, it was at this heart I heard about Jesus again and a young girl who had went through loosing her dad. Her message in Sunday School stirred my heart and my ears were open that day.
Who is this man named Jesus and can he really take away my pain? Can he guide me and help me through the hardest thing of my life? Jesus left a message in the Bible by his own example of life on earth. He walked here, experience hard stuff and great stuff. He died for each of us so we could live. There is that word again, "LIVE". When someone dies, it's like your heart get deflated and you don't know how to make it go again. It's the deepest pain ever and your sorrow can consume you. Yet, there is a time to mourn, but there is a time to live again.
I know grief all too well. My mom never really got past the loss of my dad. She stopped everything in her life and she was in her early 40's. I wanted her to date again, to live again and be my mom in everyday a mom is a mom. She spent almost 40 years in sorrow and then she found a boyfriend. In her early 80's she smiled again and in her own way, she found Jesus again. She would cry out to him and I believe God heard her heart. I often use my mom as an example to younger women who lost their husbands. Don't loose your children too! Even if they are grown children, they need you! After all, God chose you to be their mom, not for a season but for a life time. Take the time to mourn, but take the time to live again.
LIFE MOVES ON ~
Each day is another chance to thank God for all we do have in life
John 14:27 New International Version (NIV)Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Only God can give you peace in all things
I felt to write on this today. Life doesn't always turn out the way we think or even want. Yet, we are left with memories of lives both good and hard. It's the better or worse thing I guess. Love never goes away when we love someone. When Jesus came into my heart, it was only the beginning. I didn't understand the depth of faith, his love or what was next. I learned to trust him in every situation of my life.
Proverbs 3:5-6 New International Version (NIV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
As your new day begins, begin it was a grateful heart. You have another chance to live and make a difference in this life. Let Jesus turn your sorrows into helping others. Let Jesus turn your life completely around and share hope to yourself. Speak life and live the best day you can. Each of us face different things today. Some face the worst day ever and some face the best day ever. Through it all, God is able to keep you and let peace rest inside of you.
My prayers continue for you, your family and friends.