• TOO ~

    28Jan
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    It is TIME for this days newsletter ~

    The word today is ~ TOO.  The dictionary says the word “TOO”  means in addition too, also, and furthermore.  I heard the words “don’t leave me too”.  Meaning that someone else left them before.  I heard the words “I want to go too”.  Meaning I want to be with you!

    One word means different things and yet telling us so much about someone.  Promise me, ” you will always love me too”.  Words I heard from my 82 year old mom, saying to her 87 year old boyfriend.  He promises that he will always love her too. Daily they had freedom to see one another but not now. Her fall has separated them by hospitals. He can’t get around as much as he use too. They talk on the phone and the joy/sadness breaks my heart.

    We search for love and happiness TOO!  Each of us wants somebody to CARE and SHOW it. Life is short and I know that. We must learn to keep our focus on what is true. Yes, people care but are not always available to SEE us.  We have so many forms of communication TOO.  We have house phones, cell phones that travel with us, coffee time with friends, lunch, church, social gatherings and the list continues. Yet, we want to be a TOO.  We want to be included in the day of those we love.

     Psalm 37:23-26

    23 The LORD makes firm the steps
    of the one who delights in him;
    24 though he may stumble, he will not fall,
    for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

    25 I was young and now I am old,
    yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
    or their children begging bread.
    26 They are always generous and lend freely;
    their children will be a blessing.

    Friends,

    God has given us the word TOO, not to feel alone. I will be connect too by the words of God.   Psalm 37:23-26 (keep these verses planted in your hearts. GOD directs our path and we must keep our eyes focused on HIM.  I was young and now older and have seen much. I TRUST GOD with ALL my heart)

    I came home last night to FIND a cute FROG sitting on my porch. She wasn’t real but was mailed by Vicki to me!  She had word written all over it.  So fun to read the words I used to say like, “Do you know who you are”?  That statement followed by “A strong woman of God, a woman of faith, a over-comer and the list went on”.  Then FROG = Fully Relying On God. Then more words, “you are NOT alone”. What a blessing to SEE this FROG. She found the frog, wrote on it and mail it from WA. She is flying in on Monday to visit us TOO. My heart is happy and love how God connects lives. Family/friends who care are so important and hero’s in my heart. Vicki, a HUGE love you and thank you!!! Youdontevenknow how much this means.

    Let us remember that FROG is FULLY RELYING ON GOD.

    My example will go down through history and leave a legacy of FAITH ~  A legacy of trying hard and trusting ~ Living in today.  Things we would HOPE we would be remembered by. NOT the mistakes we made or the failures in our lives but the person who decided to become a over-comer and believe the JESUS LOVES ME.  My heart is filled with peace today.

    Last night at the care-home,  another hero of my heart (Mary Tremblay) came and visited my mom, Aggie and Violet in room 32.  Violet was gone most of the time. My mom slept while Mary was there awhile but we had a great time talking to Aggie.  Mary brought in red balloons in the shape of a heart. Mary said, “it shows LOVE. Valentines day is coming and we all want to be loved TOO! Aggie who can not see very well, was FULL of excitement. Aggie said, “FOR ME”, NOBODY EVERY BROUGHT ME THAT BEFORE”.  Mary got a big smile on her face. We continue to talk/laugh with Aggie.  Aggie continue to say how much she loved the balloon throughout our visit.  Before we left, Mary asked my mom is she could pray for her and put some oil on her head. My mom said, “yes”. I saw a complete change come over her face. Then Mary ask Aggie. Aggie said, “Oh Lord yes”.  Making us both feel so special to be a part of these two women’s life.  These two women needed JESUS TOO and HE made peace come into their hearts/room.  Violet was still out of the room during this time. But God knew exactly what these two women needed.

    Let me share it was HARD for Mary to walk into this care home. The last time she walked in, she faced her husband leaving this world and going to Heaven. She fought back tears but the joy of the Lord is her strength. She was concerned about my life and if I was taking care of Little Sparkie as she calls me. I love this woman so much. She is faced her heartaches of life and yet thinks of others. She carries a real Jesus attitude and I would ask you to pray for MARY this day. She stands strong and yet I know that the strong one needs prayer TOO! Her kindness and love to me is huge but watching her talk to my mom and Aggie brought JOY to my heart. My heart became HAPPY last night.  We left the room saying, WE LOVE YOU LADIES and got back replies of LOVE YOU TOO!

    You can’t tell me that ONE life doesn’t make a difference because I SAW it last night! Thank you MARY for being an example to so many people of all ages. You are a true woman of FAITH and ACTION.

    Thank you for taking the time to read my writings. To pray and care TOO!!! My heart is thankful and I am ONE bless woman for sure!  Always remember, that my prayers with you TOO!!!  My heart is thankful for each one who prayers and cares.

    Blessings, Sparkie

     

     

     

  • SUNGLASSES ~

    27Jan
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    After writing about my life reflects what yesterday , I decided to write about the SUN today ~

    The Dictionary says: the sun is a self-luminous heavenly body: star.  It sends off sunshine; the heat and light from the sun millions of miles away hits us. It is a figure that bears rays.  It is a STAR. It is the central body of the solar system. It is like a GOLD STAR that shines BIG in the sky.

    I think you get the picture of what the SUN is.  The value of it is BIG. I love the warmth of the SUN.  Often times we need to get SUNGLASSES to protect our eyes. The light is just too bright. The sun makes me happy. I love to sit outside and feel the warmth that comes from it. The sun brings up different temperatures that people like. Some days just right and other days too hot.

    ECCLESIASTES 1:5 ~ The sun rises and the sun sets, and hurries back to where it rises.

    God controls the weather. HE is the only weather man that knows exactly what today holds. Whether the SUN will come or not.  I am thankful that God knows exactly what we need in this life.

    How about the SON that GOD gave for each of us. JOHN 3:16 ~ For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

    Think about it:  who would give their ONLY SON just for you?  Just so you can have eternal life in Heaven. A place where the SON shines everyday. Until we reach that Heaven land, we live on earth and we can feel the power of God.  THE SON that shines deep inside us, will come out of us. Our actions, our thoughts, our determination and the list goes on.  So how about it?  Is your life so bright with the SON name JESUS? A light that can NOT be hid.

    MATTHEW 5:14 ~ You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.

    The words of God inside the Bible is:

    PSALM 119:105 ~ Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.

    FRIENDS,

    Let us GO and SHINE bright with JOY. Let us learn to guard our hearts and let FREEDOM rest in our lives. Things come and things go. A new day is here and we have decisions to make. Let us LEAN to GOD and TRUST that HE guides us so gently.

    Blessings, Sparkie

     

  • MY LIFE REFLECTS WHAT ~

    26Jan
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    As I travel this journey of LIFE, I have often wonder what is LIFE about ~

    Each day waking up with thoughts. Some thoughts that make you smile, because you had the best dream or your heart pounds from the scarey dream. A dream can make you feel as if it is truly happening. Whether that dream is good or bad. Shaking yourself to say, “I will hold onto what is good and let go of what is bad”.  It’s a choice.

    Have you ever looked into a mirror and did not see what others see in you?  I am starting to see what people see in me. A reflection that wasn’t so bad.  As I am growing older in God, I am taking on FAITH more every day. Times that are scarey with what I must face but finding that God is still always there. It is not just words on a page written by God but words that are planted deep inside my heart and faith grows. It’s a choice!

    1 Corinthians 13:11-12

    When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

    Friends, I once was young and now I am older.  The Bible verse above, show us what it was like as a child. It doesn’t actually mean a age thing to me but a growth in God. Maybe you are called a baby Christian. You haven’t seen the power of God like someone else. Maybe you were not taught to have FAITH or TRUST God through out your life. But you are here now and reading what I write. This is amazing to me, just how great God is to connect lives.  I put a picture on this page today of me standing in a mirror looking at myself.  I don’t know it all and I haven’t seen it all in life, but I have been lots of places of hurt and lots of places of good things. Miracles I have seen and I walk by faith even in the hard times. I try my best to show myself REAL.  I have times of being angry with God and not understanding HIS PLAN. Yet, I teach women and men to overcome and hold tight to FAITH.

    Hebrews Chapter 11 is the FAITH chapter. Verse ONE says this: Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

    I can confident my heart holds PEACE. Learning that through it all, God is still there!
    FAITH to me is like the wind. I can NOT see it but I know it’s there. There are times when I do feel it and so thankful for a small breeze.  Other times when the wind will blow you from side to side and wonder if the trees will hold up. It is like a huge test when winds come. It can even blow your car around. Faith to me is much like that. I can’t see it.  Even a small sign that my faith is working, helps me.  A big storm of life brings my faith to a new level. I tell myself to LEAN not to my own understanding but to HOLD ONTO FAITH.
    I have learned to REACH out of myself and ask for help. We don’t have to do life alone, God is bigger than that.  God gives us family/friends who stand with us.  Yesterday, Ana brought me coffee at the care home right before I have the honor of teaching at The Well.  We had a great talk and tears of joy began to fill my heart.  I saw how far God has brought me from.  I realize that PEACE rest inside my heart. Ana kind words were such a blessing to my life.
    As I look into this mirror of my life and I see the reflection of myself, I see HOPE. I see that my age is no longer young but has headed over the half way mark of life. I am good with that. It’s not about a number but it’s about a reflection of my life to others. The pictures show two of people. One real person and the other a reflection of who I am.  My brain other goes two places. One good and one bad.  I make daily choices to bring my thoughts back to good. ONE ME is all I can handle. (Smile)
    A true me I give you every day. Life can be hard but God is still greater.  Wisdom comes with age as well. We can learn daily from someone else.  The life of my family/friends becomes a reflection of what hold deep inside their hearts as well. I don’t see a ugly kid anymore, I see a grown woman loving myself for who I am. The smile may be big but deep inside many trials have done and a new day is here.  Ready and willing for you to see who I am on the inside now.  Just a little girl growing up daily into a mature woman of God. Test, trials, disappointments, hurts and yet great things live inside of me. I always wanted that mother I will never had.  As I watch my mom go through these hard days, I still stand faithful beside her but I must be honest, I look at her and wonder WHY.  She has spent 40 years living in the past. I was never enough to bring her out of that. My little girl heart still wants that. Yet, I want the peace of God more than anything on earth and I do have that! I also want the peace of God for her and I believe she is trying hard as she can, to have peace in the midst of it all. Daily new things come up and daily we learn. Learning that her reflection isn’t me and my reflection isn’t her.  We are individuals that makes choices. Our choices affects others. It’s a choice!
    Thank you for taking the time to read this and pray. I value your support so much. I pray the BEST in LIFE for each of you and thank GOD for connections made by HIM. Remember that life is short, go do something special for yourself today. Treat yourself to a smile, cup of tea/coffee or flowers. God made us all special in his eyes and connects us to right people. God does give the desires of the heart.  Take a look into a mirror and see what I see today, THE PEACE that passes all understanding of humans.
    Let your first desire be God and let HIM join you, in put pieces of the puzzle together of your life. Jeremiah 29:11 HIS PLAN WORKS.
    Blessings, Sparkie

  • WHO ENTERS YOUR ROOM ~

    25Jan
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    The room number is 32 ~ walking into this room immediately brought SMILES last night ~  a night I will remember forever.

    I decided to share my life my experience of last night with you….  Two women,  laying in their beds in a care home without the ability to get out of bed by themselves. One 82 years old, recovering of a broken hip, the other plus 90 and unable to use her hands, feet or complete eye sight. I walk in and said, “hey you two beautiful women what’s up?”   My mom smiled BIG and Aggie said, “Sparkie”.  I said, ” I drove over to see if you two chicks were staying out of trouble”.  They both laughed. Aggie said, “well we can’t even get out of here”.  I said, “that is why I came to you”.  Let do some singing tonight….Aggie said I can’t sing and my mom started singing a song! Wow this totally shocked me.  I never heard that song before but she knew it. I saw HOPE in her eyes tonight. I left her room with both of them smiling and happy.

    I started crying on the way home. I don’t understand the plan of God having people lay in a bed helpless but yet I did,  in a crazy way tonight.  Angus (Aggie)  is teaching my mom to be kind, smile and laugh. Angus doesn’t know it but the JOY shines through her little crippled body. She told me last night, Sparkie, you bring JOY to this room and in my heart. I realized that Aggie is teaching me too.  She has JOY and doesn’t remember a lot but she can HUM JESUS LOVES ME. When I say, “I’m tired”, she laughs and says, “I’m tired of laying in this bed”. She brings me back to thankful things we so often forget we have. Freedom to go and freedom to dress ourselves, freedom to rub our eyes of we need too, or feed ourselves or not to wear diapers. As her tray of food sits by her bed, she says, “is somebody going to feed me, I’m hungry. She has to wait for someone to come back into the room to do this. I said, “Aggie, I would but I don’t know the order they feed you and that’s important. She can’t chew food, she has no teeth. My heart hurts for older people and yet, they still teach even when they think they don’t. Aggie use to be a school teacher in a ONE ROOM class. Eight grades she taught and enjoyed it she said. I find her still teaching in THIS ONE ROOM of three women.

    I often take the freedom for granted in my life. I thank GOD for showing me LIFE through these older women.  Before leaving the room, I hug my mom, kissed her by and said I love you. Then as I approached the door, I hear Aggie shout, I love you Sparkie. I went up to her bed and said, I love you too Aggie.  The helper was about to feed Angus dinner now.  Violet rolls into the room in a wheel chair and I said,” hey Violet you look beautiful tonight and she smiled. She said, who me? Beautiful? and I said, yes you”.  I am going to leave tonight but I am praying the three of you tonight to get lots of rest and beautiful dreams. They all said, thank you! I thank the nurses aide for helping them and left.  It was a good night in room 32.

    ONE SMILE ~ makes such a difference

    I would like to call our lives a ROOM.  It is filled with stuff. Some useful and some not useful at all.  Things we collect and they become important to us. Actually, priceless to us. Hopes and dreams still live inside of us. Things we taught which was right and things that are not so right. Letting go of negative thoughts inside this room is important.  The room can be filled with clutter. IT IS TIME TO CLEAN OUR ROOM. ~   I am learning to LIVE IN TODAY.  Taking things one step at a time and enjoying the moment of life God has chosen for me. It’s hard but it’s worth it to see three women smile last night. I have a choice in which way I look into a ROOM. The negative or the positive. I must choose the positive or it hurts so bad.

    Philippians 4:6-7

    Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

    WHO ENTERS YOUR ROOM ~ Let it be God who enters inside your heart. This will keep your mind STAYED on purpose. A joy that people see and a HOPE that people need. Crazy how you can be feeding a grand-baby in the morning and a mom at night. I have HOPE that God works all things for my good. Keeping my eyes fixed on JESUS. A thankful heart is what I have and I will take a deep breathe and allow God to use it to help others. Asking largely for your prayers for my mom, Aggie, Violet who is in this room and peace at night as they sleep. I see three older women in the natural eye but hear three little girls who don’t understand life. God help ROOM 32 and the girls who call this their now home. Wow too big to handle at times and yet prayer works. Holding tight to faith and my family/friends who care so much. I am a bless woman to help these three women and others whom I have met there. I don’t think the nursing staff or helpers get paid enough for the things they must do for others there. They give their hearts and go home so tired. We need to pray for people who are in situations that seems unbearable. It hard to FACE somethings in life. My room inside my heart but be filled with PEACE.  God has given me strength and courage to face the unknown. Daily something new happens. Daily I will TRUST GOD.

    WHO ENTERS YOUR ROOM ~ GOD

    Thank you for reading this today. Thank you for ALL your many prayers and support. Sharing life each of us is amazing. God has not brought us this far in life, without a complete plan of HOPE/PEACE.  I am finding through this experience of life, I must clean my ROOM and let the PEACE enter freely.  The door is open and I am ready to live in purpose. Taking a DEEP breathe and off again to face a day of divine appointments set up by God. Come on and join me today, it feels great to SEE a clean room inside my heart. Somethings you can do nothing about and other things you can.  LIVE IN TODAY with JOY!

    I never thought of myself as a person enter the room with joy. I felt broken down many times entering room 32  but knew I needed to stir up the joy inside my heart. It brings a SMILE to my face as I think of how God connects lives even in the broken times. There have been people visit my mom that don’t even know her. That action enters the ROOM of my heart forever. KINDNESS ~ CARING

    WHO ENTERS YOUR ROOM ~ is your choice. The attitude your carry in and out.  Making right choices and let even the bad become good. God does work ALL things for our best. I totally believe that. Thankful for those who care about me as well. Just a big hug of thanks and joy unspeakable that stays inside my heart.

    Blessings, Sparkie

  • we NEED each other ~

    24Jan
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    As I think about LIFE, I think of how quickly it goes by……

    ONE day we are born ~ ONE day we learn to crawl   ~  ONE day we learn to walk ~
    Proverbs 22:6 ~  Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.

    ONE day we take on responsibilities of LIFE.  The Bible says that LIFE will happen:

    Ecclesiastes 3  ~  A Time for Everything

    For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

    2 a time to be born, and a time to die;
    a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
    3 a time to kill, and a time to heal;
    a time to break down, and a time to build up;
    4 a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
    a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
    5 a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
    a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
    6 a time to seek, and a time to lose;
    a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
    7 a time to tear, and a time to sew;
    a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
    8 a time to love, and a time to hate;
    a time for war, and a time for peace.

    Friends,

    As life continues on, we NEED each other ~

    God connects live for purpose. There will be ALL seasons of LIFE and there will be those who STAND faithfully with us.  I have found in the hard spots of life, I find out who my REAL friends are.  Unconditional love and pushing their own thoughts aside in order to help me.  My mother is now in a care home and things are NOT working out so great. I hear her cry and yesterday she said, “I don’t have a home anymore”. Her boyfriend who is 87 years old, is being moved to a different city. I heard my mom tell him, “tell me that you will always love me”. Her tears and pain melted my heart. God why? Really God? Come on?  Are you kidding me?  You say in your word that you will put NOTHING on us we can not bear but I think this is stretching it for me.  A woman who grew up in the depression and struggled to find love for 40 years and they are going to be kept apart because of care homes.  I don’t know about this anymore. I must take my thoughts from human thoughts and say, “God I will trust you but I am not happy in my now of life. Help me to see things your way”.

    In each season of life, I have learned something. The learning experience the most is this: life is too short to waste it. It let yesterdays of life, take your today. LIVE IN TODAY ~  Maybe your today is overwhelming and you can’t figure things out. Maybe it’s not your job to figure things out but to TRUST GOD.

    we NEED each other ~ to hold on for us, to hold on with us and to encourage each other. we NEED each other to help us SEE the blessings that surround our lives when times make us feel as if we are drowning in the pain of it all.  we NEED each other to remind of us of just how far God has brought us and where he is taking us too. HEAVEN ~ a real place of peace.

    Daily ~ I choose to start over in my brain. A new day, a new plan and a future that holds for each of us.  Tears and smiles can come in one day. Plus,  A promise of HEAVEN and a HOPE beyond human understanding.  Thank you for staying in my life, for your comments and prayers. I totally NEED my family/friends who continue to show me support and pray for me when life gets rough. To laugh with me through it all and count blessings.

    I WILL TRUST THE LORD IN ALL THINGS, even through my tears.

    Blessings, Sparkie

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